Today, is how I feel like this...

Christmas is over now, and I'm at home...I have this nasty feeling in my heart, and I can't exactly describe how it feels...  I know that I love him, I know that I wish I could share with him the same things we use to, like when we use to do things together like cooking; we would hug and kiss or laugh about silly stuff that we do... we would work together. Now the space between almost feelds empty. And I don't want to share it no more...
I can't look at him in the face, he's changing into something he is not...and he doesn't see it...
I'm losing him it feels...And I'm scared of the unknown. And I feel tired...I feel like ...Gee I don't know anymore...
And worse Knowing that the someone else he's interested in hides things from him, makes me uneasy. But at times I don't care, because he treats me unfairly. For 6 months, I've been here showig my care and appreciation for him, for him to see that I love him and that I would move sea and mountains for him. But no, I guess it's just not enough? I don't know what stops him. I don't dare to think that I'm not good enough because I'm a great person, I make a great girlfriend and he is blind to see this if he hasn't figured it out yet...I;m here waiting to BE what he wants and needs for the rest of his life...But I can't sit here and wait for that day to happen. All I can do, is let him know how I feel. I will not give up. My life goes on, right? I keep busy, focusing on new people in my life, like michael and Georgia, and a few others... My best friend has been a great support system, And Georiga has had to hear all the cries and hurt...even michael... I can't thank all those who have enough... <3  Hopefully, this whole dating thing doesn't overwhelm me, I mean, it's a lot t deal with at times... different personalities... If I could make a choice, It would be my Gorgeous diamond <3

And so the new chapter in my book with: Me enduring, embracing and enjoying, and having the best revenge there is...Living WELL...