Carousel by Laura Izbor

Cause she was his lover
she was his friend
he was her everything
someone to depend

When she wakes up in the mornin'
and all his things are gone
she looks into the mirror
thinkin' what did i do wrong

There he goes
but i gotta keep movin'
there ain't nothing to lose for ?

Everyday has its ups and downs
you think you're lost
you will be found
most of us want the same old things
someone to love
what it brings
i know its hard it gets tough sometimes
you gotta hold on, like a carousel
going around & around & around & around

she was so young
but she was in love
he promised her everything
that she could dream of

when she wakes up in the mornin'
finds that he ain't there
she looks into the mirror
thinking how did i get here

there he goes
but i gotta keep movin'
there aint nothin' to lose for ?

Everyday has its ups and downs
you think you're lost
you will be found
most of us want the same old things
someone to love
what it brings
i know its hard it gets tough sometimes
you gotta hold on, like a carousel
going around & around & around & around

Yeahhhhhh

Everyday has its ups and downs
you think you're lost
you will be found
most of us want the same old things
someone to love
what it brings
i know its hard it gets tough sometimes
you gotta hold on, like a carousel
going around & around & around & around

Feelings Could Be Empty...

(I usually don't use bad language in my writing, but this is my way of expressing my heart).

All I can say is fuck it all, because there's nothing I can do to fix your broken heart.
Fuck it all, for feeling lost and most of all- unworthy.
Unworthy to love you right.
Unworthy to give up my pride and fears, for you.
Now you don't feel me.
You should see me now...

Look back at all the special moments we've had, together.
Did you ever took the time to realize how much I really do love you?
My candle is just, burning.
The flame is dying, babe, is dying.
How else can I make you understand this beating in my heart.
This beating that since the day I saw you for the first time hasn't gone away.

But you are still here, apart from your broken heart.
You still want me. Why, me? What the hell is it about me that you can't live without?
Fucking, explain to me why is it that I try my hardest to show you my love for you;
When your love comes so effortlessly.

Anytime I feel overwhelmed I just want to run away.
Oh so far away. Away from you, away from anything thay may hurt me.
And I can't even walk away from you when you make me feel not good enough.
Fuck you.

All the things I've been wanting have been layed out infront of me.
My path is up to me. My choices will cost me pain and dissapointment.
But you know what? I think I'll be just fine.

If you want me, come and get me.
Because I am fucking tired.
Show me that you love me, and I'll care.
Tell me what the fuck is it that you want
Because what I want is right infront of me, you.

I just want to be able to catch someone as they fall.
I want to be someone's light.
Someone's happiness.
Someone's galway girl...
I want to be the trust, loyalty, and commitment they'll never fnd anywhere else.
I want to be someone's sweetheart.
I want to be someone's love.
I want to be someone's wife.
I want to be someone's mother.
I want to be someone's best friend.
All I want is to be someone's home....

Do you still want me now?...of course not, because you know
You won't ever give me all those things in order for me to be happy.
The end.


(for anyone who read this-forgive me).

~Photography~

My personal favorite

Smile for me...

How my life seems to pass me by.

Murder, she wrote, darling.

Colorado grounds

With you, that's where I want to go...



Tonight: Your Blanket of Comfort

Tonight, I have sinned.
I cry as I lay on my bed.
The night's humidity wraps in my lonesome night.
The guilt I feel is, oh, so overwhelming.
There are no arms holding me tonight.
There are no hands wiping away my tears tonight.
Not tonight.
But I know you can hear my cry.
I know you know what I did wrong.
But something keeps telling me-
"It's okay, my angel"
Suddenly I feel your blanket of comfort being wrapped around me.
My night has faded away with no regrets.
Because underneath it all, it was meant to be.
It was bound to happen, tonight.
And it created my deeper bond that no one could break.
I feel your spirit in my heart. And that's how I know-
That you still love me, my sweet Lord.

Give me Reason

Give me a reason why not to show my love for you.
Give me a reason why I can not tell the whole world about how much I am in love with you.
Give me a reason why I can not spend my life with you 'till the end of time.
Give me a reason why I must be kept in the dark and not be able to bloom by your side.
Give me a reason why after everything I have done worng, you are still here?
Give me a reason why you are still here?
Give me a reason, please?

Give me a reason why is it that your heart beats rapidly as we hug goodbye.
Give me a reason that answers my doubts and fears.
Give me a reason, please?
Give me a reason why you are... still here?

Deeper Bond

After all this time
It has happened.

Underneath all the pain,
It feels amazing to love you.

Like you said- " This means beyond my belief"
I feel the same way, love.

And nothing has ever felt so right
Than the bond you and I share.

Question

Little did I know

That I could have a middle ground

Seems like I do now.

When we go our separate ways

It is as if you take half of my self with you.

But you always return me back home.

How come we didn't see this before?

And why does it have to be this way?

The answers are just the mistakes and knowledge

We have made in the past.

Rather to say the answer are our consequences, love.